do you still remember me? (who am I kidding, no one uses xanga these days)

It's been such a long time. Summer's passing by in the blink of an eye, but it doesn't really feel like summer. ahhhh so much work. I've been taking this writing workshop for three weeks, but I feel like I'm not gaining too much since the teacher's always telling me what a splendid writer I am.

Hm, not very exciting, I know. I'm no fun anymore...

woah my screen just froze when i clicked post weblog...

soo oo busy these days, I think I'm gonna be sleep deprived and have a panic attack. I feel like I'm failing all my classes, but no one cares since no one goes on xanga anymore.

bye, mom is calling me to do shizzles.

mothersuckers. mothersucking. mothersuckinism. gosh, thats a clever word when one has nothing better to say. supercalifragilisticexpealidocious is awfully long. Besides, no one really knows how to correctly spell it. I don't really know myself these days... it's weird. I wish I had a twin so I'd know how I look when I sneeze or eat noodles. That'll be fun. But I wouldn't want an annoying twin. There's these two twins, Ted and Tim, and Ted isn't even the guy's real name. They look exactly the same and I can never tell them apart. Just today, a guy in my class with an afro and dresses rock-n-roll style with this star necklace, offered them money to be in his dad's movie. it was something like 20 bucks an hour. Boy, were they thrilled. First asian twins to be featured in a movie. big deal.

oh hey, Good Morning... mothersucking mothersuckers.

Head underwater
And they tell me
To breathe easy for a while
Breathing gets harder, even I know that
Made room for me; but it's too soon to see
If I'm happy in your hands
I'm unusually hard to hold on to

Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well, but you make this hard on me

I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's
Make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leavin',
Imma need a better reason
To write you a love song today

-from Sara Bareilles' "Love Song"